How is it July already!? Stop it, time, you stupid idiot! But here we are…and I am…the same. Okay i’m not the same. I am moving in the right direction. I fell off the wagon and started drinking again, but I have quit again and will make it through the end of the year, and beyond. I am nothing if not tenacious, and I am not embarrassed by it. I feel brave for trying, for telling the world, for experiencing a setback (learning what doesn’t work, right?), and getting right back on the horse. And this time feels different. It feels like when I actually quit smoking (ALMOST EIGHT YEARS AGO!) because I am not sad about it. I’ve got some tools now to get through tricky moments, which I’m sure will come, but hopefully this time it’ll take.
The same with writing. I was doing the thing, and then I just…wasn’t. But I’ve got some new strategies, including a wonderful new office and office hours set up in the shed in our backyard. It feels amazing to have a “space” for my creativity. No idea why I needed this, but it feels 100% right and I am sitting here during my “office hours” making it happen, and feeling creative and full of ideas. Let’s do this thing!