Open Sesame!

This year I am committed to being more honest and open. Since my divorce and work promotions, I’ve found myself really closed off to many things emotionally. It’s a dangerous world out there to just go around openly sharing yourself with others. And I’m not sure that’s what I’m going to do, but I want to nurture and deepen the relationships that I do have, without fearing that it will come back to hurt me in some way. I also want to let go of the people who I don’t want to share myself and my time with, and be free of their influence, which was my major motivation for leaving facebook. I realize I could organize people into “circles,” but I think the natural ones are more real, and I want to delve deeper into my human relationships than facebook will allow me to go. I also want to dig deeper into myself, and doing that in a public forum particularly scares me. However, one of my lifelong dreams is to write, and I find the best writing to be personal. I’m going to have to put myself out there. Wish me luck.

Jackpot!

After being off work for nearly one week, I feel like a new woman. I spent the morning doing some planning for this little blog here, trying to decide what shape I want it to take, and I think it will be focused around one central topic that everyone is concerned with: me. It will mostly be a travel blog, but I’ll try to also tell funny stories about my day and share the little idiosyncratic things about life in Japan.

Today was a particularly good day. I got my hairs cut (just a smidge) and then ran some errands. At the post office, I was shocked to discover I had FIVE packages. Giddy with glee, I skipped home to open all my completely unexpected presents! They are wonderful gifts, but mostly I just feel so loved, and so happy to have such a wonderful family and amazing friends that are so thoughtful. I can’t tell you all what it means to me to know that I’m in your thoughts.

I didn’t bring a lot of stuff with me to Japan, and so I’ve had to purchase many basic (cheap) things for my home. This has left it bland, and without character. It makes me long for a place that has been “lived in” and reflects memories, travels, and love. These small items from my loved ones help me to make this place a home, and remind me of how very lucky I am. Now I’m off to go put on tons of my new gold and sliver eye shadow, eat chocolate, and listen to new music from my speakerpillow! YES!